Catholic Bishops Stopped My Surgery Because I’m Transgender

After years of working to affirm my identity in a world where transgender people are questioned constantly about their decisions, I felt hopeful as I arrived for the surgery I had waited so long for. I was 27, and I would finally be closer to calling my body home.

Since I was a kid, I’ve felt like my body didn’t match my soul. I felt uncomfortable in clothes. I felt disgusting when I showered. Everything felt wrong, but it took me a while to figure out why.

Once I discovered that I am a man, I went to my doctor to start the process of medically transitioning. I began taking testosterone. I had a double mastectomy. The next step was a hysterectomy.

My surgery was scheduled for Aug. 30, 2017, at St. Joseph Hospital in Eureka, California. It’s the only hospital in the area, and I was so excited that my community offered transgender care. I could get the operation close to home and then recover with my loved ones.

I had a pre-op appointment on Aug. 24 that went smoothly, and I followed all the instructions to prepare for my surgery.

On Aug. 30, I arrived at the hospital and they checked me in and did the surgery prep, which was extremely uncomfortable and triggering. I was given a pink gown. I asked the nurse if I could have a blue gown, but she told me I was having a “female surgery” and should wear the pink. I felt like a child all over again, sitting uncomfortably in a pink dress. But I forced myself to do it, I had been waiting so long for this.

They hooked me up to an IV to get ready to put me to sleep. About an hour after waiting, my surgeon finally came to get me. But when I saw the look on his face, I got a terrible feeling. He told me my surgery was canceled. It was denied by the Catholic Church for ethical reasons. I didn’t understand how this could be happening. The Catholic bishops didn’t approve of my surgery. It seemed unreal.

I had an anxiety attack and thought about all the pre-op and mental preparedness I had to go through just to get here. I freaked out and started crying. I was given medication to calm me down.

Fifteen minutes after that, the hospital staff asked me to leave. I still had booties on my feet as a nurse led me outside. I felt humiliated and queasy as I sat on the curb waiting for my roommate to pick me up.

It seems the hospital does not understand how it feels to be treated inhumanely just because your body parts do not match your soul. This surgery was important — it was meant to balance my hormones. The delay disrupted my life. I felt like the hospital’s bigotry had set me back years.

Today, with the help of the ACLU, I filed a lawsuit. It’s unfair for St. Joseph to deny me care because I’m a transgender man. I should be able to go to the hospital where I live. Life in Humboldt County has been tough enough. Everyone thinks it’s a liberal place, but it’s not for trans people. I am regularly harassed and called names.

I didn’t expect discrimination from a hospital. The sting from the rejection remains, but I hope my story lets others know that this is unacceptable. And we should continue to fight until we are all treated fairly. No one should be denied health care because of who they are.

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Shim Heshe really?

I'm confused as well. Did the first commenter even read the story? Or are they just another Russian troll farmer?

Dr. Theodore Da...

Obvious troll is obvious.

Anonymous

I didn't think it was possible for so much ignorance to be concentrated down into one comment.

He's a transgender man. Now think real hard for a moment: This person currently lives their day to day life as a man and is referred to as a man.

Anonymous

Sounds to me you just wanted to use these derogatory terms, the article was quite clear so your stupid question was completely uncalled for. Just another judgemental a-hole.

Anonymous

"Heshe" "Shim"
What the??? Those are not the words to call someone. HE is a trans MAN, so FTM

Anonymous

Seriously? He was having a hysterectomy. That should be pretty plain that he's transitioning from female to male. What are you, 12?

Anonymous

You're garbage

Frank

I am confused. Is Gloria the biggest idiot to ever grace the ACLU website?

KatieMac

Your usage of “Heshe” and “Shim” is indicative, I think, of your position on transgender folk. This was between HIM and HIS doctors. Your position and the position of the church should have nothing to do with it.

Anonymous

Heshe? Shim? What the serious hell is wrong with you? Why would you ever use those terms for a trans person, especially on the damn ACLU website? And transgendering? Fucking Jesus..

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