Philando Castile Should Still Be Alive

Update 6/17/2017:  A jury in Ramsey County found Officer Jeronimo Yanez not guilty of the 2016 killing of Philando Castile. Read more from ACLU of Minnesota

Update 11/16/2016: In a step towards police accountability prosecutors found the police killing of Philando Castile was not justified, and have brought charges of second-degree manslaughter. 

Philando Castile should still be alive.

Mr. Phil (as he was known at school) worked at my son’s elementary school in the cafeteria. My son started pre-K this fall at the tender age of four. First thing he did every morning was walk in and get breakfast. He had never eaten in a cafeteria — he didn’t know the routine — and from day one Mr. Phil made him comfortable. I would often walk in with my son and had the pleasure of talking with Mr. Phil many mornings.

Within a week Mr. Phil knew my son’s name, despite the fact that there are hundreds of kids in the school. He would always make sure he actually took the food he was supposed to take, and he would often let him take an extra item if he was really hungry.

Mr. Phil’s life mattered. It mattered to his friends, to his family, and to the hundreds of students at J.J. Hill Elementary. It should matter to all of us as a society. It should matter that another Black man was senselessly killed at the hands of people who are supposed to protect us.

Thank You Mr. Phil -- Rest in Power

I can’t get his picture out of my head, smiling from next to the breakfast cart, greeting my son. I shouldn’t have to live on memories. He didn’t need to die.

I shouldn’t have to find the right words to talk about it with my 5-year-old son. I shouldn’t have to tell him that Mr. Phil was killed by the police for no reason. I shouldn’t have to explain that the people charged with protecting us all too often end up killing people with brown skin.

My son is mixed; his dad is Black. He will learn that his skin color makes people unjustifiably scared of him. He might soon have to fear that his dad will be shot while he is in the backseat. Tonight, I will probably sneak in bed with him, cuddle up next to him, and just be with him — as I’ve done every night since Mr. Phil was stolen from us. But my husband and I can’t put off talking with him forever. We will talk with him and struggle to find the right words. I will probably start crying which will upset my son, but I will have to be there for him as he tries to make sense of all of this violence. 

Mr. Phil’s life mattered. It mattered to his friends, to his family, and to the hundreds of students at J.J. Hill Elementary. It should matter to all of us as a society.

In many ways I feel incredibly lucky to be able to work at the ACLU and spend all of my working hours fighting for justice. The day after his shooting I could go to the protest for hours in the morning for work. I could take action through the ACLU, in our call for an independent investigation. I could spend my day writing these words and spend time processing my grief. While most people don’t do this for their profession, we can all contribute to the cause in our own way.

Mr. Phil was a good man. I’m not saying this to justify why he shouldn’t have been killed because I believe that even the people who the media try to paint as bad people don’t deserve to die unjustly at the hands of the police. I’m saying it because it is what I know about Mr. Phil.

Mr. Phil will be remembered by his friends and families and the thousands of students whose lives he positively impacted as a kind, caring, and thoughtful man. It is just terrible that all we have now are memories.  

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Rick Mons

Thanks, Jana, for your story and helping us understand more about Philando Castile. Such a senseless loss.

Valerie Jefferson

Praying for you and your family too. Thank you for sharing your story, helping others to understand. My child and I drove by the Dallas shooting scene yesterday and she responded, "what happened over there", I too realized I couldn't speak. I couldn't figure out how to tell her about the serious of events that have taken place. I feel overwhelmed. My heart goes out to all of you (and those families who have experienced lost).

Carlinda McGrew

Thank you and I'm sorry you and your family and the school are mourning a loss that should not have happened. I want to be a part of the solution. I'm seeking direction from my community on what I can do. Again thank you.

Alesha K. Russey

Blessings to you Mrs. Kooren {{{HUG}}}


After being hospitalized 5051 for something not my fault , I saw for first time being powerless labeled and stigmatized what it must be like . We have real problem in America with those who don't know what it's like . The white elites who have had everything handed to them with no real challenges are part of the problem , and I'm white .


Five cops killed in Dallas. Three cops killed in Baton Rouge.
When will the ACLU STOP its violent anti-police rhetoric?


Compare that to the deaths of over a thousand people so far this year. When will the police stop its violent anti-citizen rhetoric? When will you?


When the bad cops quit killing innocent people and the good cops hold them accountable.


Boy, this statement says so much~ So, the lives of those innocent black men and women who were murdered by cops (who are above the law it seems) don't matter? I don't condone violence of any kind, but I can certainly understand the frustration of the black community and their feeling of 'us against them'. Besides, the majority of the protests are peaceful. It is not the responsibility of the group for the individual's actions.


Beautifully written. Thank you for doing this. I, too, have black children from their father and it's been a rough year trying to explain all of the nonsense that's been happening. I'm scared it's only going to get worse now. I'm supporting the ACLU as my reaction to it all. Thanks again.


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